Baby E is here! She arrived 9/15!

It has taken a while to get around to typing it all out and i summarized the end some...
but here goes!

TLDR will put this version first. Went in for induction, 39 hours later and after being fully dialated for 8 hours and pushing off and on Baby E was born Via c-section on 9/15

We headed into the hospital 7:30pm on 9/13 to start the induction process.
Got all checked in and settled in our room. The OB came in and checked me, I was still 1 cm and high and long, so the same as my appt the Tuesday before. He said he would be back to start the cervadril. It was 2 hours later when he came in and placed it at 1130pm. And we were left alone for the night except some BP checks etc. Within an hour or so of getting the cervadril I started having back/hip cramps which started to space out and I assumed were contractions. At first I was able to doze through them, around 3am they got a little more painful and I was having to breathe through them, I wasn't timing them or anything but they were pretty consistent.
At 4am I felt a huge gush followed by several smaller gushes. I hit my nurse call button and my nurses came running in all excited... it was for sure my water and it was everywhere... we fashioned me a diaper out of some of their waterproof mat things so I could get into the bathroom to clean up a bit while they cleaned up my bed. My cervadril had also come out when my water broke so they paged the OB.
Around 530am he came in to check me and I was at 1cm still, but 50% and she was at -3. But I was contracting every 2-3 minutes. He decided to meet with another OB to come up with a plan of action.
By 730am I was having serious hip and back pain with every contraction and doing my best to breathe through it and was still waiting on a plan of action, but hoping beyond hope that something was happening down there! When my new nurse came on shift we decided to get me something to take the edge off the pain and she put in an order for morphine. Soon after that the OB came in and decided to do another cervadril. The nurse and I thought it was odd with how much fluid I was losing that it might not stay in place. But it happened and she gave me my morphine and I went to sleep..
2 hours later she came to check on me and i got up to use the bathroom and the cervadril had come out at some point in those 2 hours. So the OB was paged again.
In the meantime I was given the all clear to eat something and take a shower. So I showered which was awesome but had some killer contractions while in there. Tried to eat but threw it all back up.
I got checked again at 430pm and was 4cm and 50% and she was finally at -1 station. So the OB wants to wait a little bit to see how I progress on my own.
The OB came back at 8pm and I was at 5cm, 75% and 0 station, so they decided that they need to start pitocin because I am not progressing very quickly on my own.
Within an hour of starting pitocin the pain was off the charts so when my nurse came back to up the pitocin I asked for the epidural. I had been dealing with horrible back labor for 24 hours at that point. The magical Epi people came around 10 and it was so much better after! I was able to doze for a while and at 330am woke up as pain was getting worse in my tailbone and left hip.
The nurse paged the OB who came in and to everyones shock I was 10cm, 100% and baby was at +1. They had me do some practice pushes to see if I could get the baby to move, after an hour of that my left hip pain was so bad I could barely function and baby was not making any progress so they decided to give me an epi boost. Was able to sleep a bit more and they came back and had me try pushing again, still was not able to make progress. This happened off and on for 8 hours.
The OB came in and off and on and was concerned that I had been fully dilated for so long and was not able to bring her down farther and made the call for me to have a csection.
Within a half hour I was in the OR having our little girl.
She arrived at 1:42 pm Monday 9/15 8lbs 1oz and 20.5 inches long.
The OB said after my section that he saw no reason physically why I couldn't bring her down. But it might have had something to do with the epidural and being so numbed up I could not push properly.
Started TTC 5/2011 Finally expecting

40 weeks 2 days and still waiting!

Had an appointment today... Was still at 1cm but was 50% effaced... So that is a small change in a week. Not much to write home about.

Been very tired all week and crampy but no real timeable comtractions.

My OB doesnt like people to go past 41 weeks so I set eviction day. I had the option of going in Friday night or Saturday night. I decided to give her one more day to come out on her own and picked Saturday night. They will call me some time on Saturday to confirm there is room in L&D for me and will start the process. 

Hopefully it doesnt come to that but I am sort of okay with it if it does.

Just so funny that it took us almost 3 years to get her in there, and now she wont come out!

So the usual....

Belly button is still an innie, weight, I have lost for the second week in a row. 

Very tired, naps are my friend.

The rest is pretty much the same. Just getting really tired of my parents calling or texting every 2.5 seconds. They need to just stop and realize if there is anything to tell I will tell them. Its not like I am not sharing info, there is just no info to share....

And speaking of parents, look who pulled in my driveway... Sigh....

Anyway once little one is here I am probably going to create a new baby blog. This one will probably not be updated much until we decide if we are going to TTC again. The new blog wont reference our IF struggles and will be more for my friends and family tomwatch her grow. You all ofmcourse welcome to follow that blog as well.

I will post a link once it is up and running!

39 weeks! Full Term... so close!

Hey look I am actually early on this thing!! :)

How big is baby:  39 weeks,watermelon!!
Total weight change:  I don't know, have not been on the scale lately...
Symptoms: reflux is horrid. Hips are so sore at night. I am peeing 50000 times a day. Been having some contractions but nothing major. So tired.
Maternity clothes: Yes please, it is like wearing jammies all day!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: I am so tired all the time but sleep is getting more elusive!
Best moment of this week: Last day of work!!!!!! Woooo!! Although I need to check work email this week and may get some phone calls. (I hope not though) So we will see
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time! Solid night of sleep. Sleeping my on back or belly.
Movement: She is a crazy one sometimes... I can just sit and watch my belly go insane! still the same, but there are lots of quiet moments, and more hiccups!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Chicken....
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: Had some contractions last night that woke me up. When I decided to pay attention to them they fizzled out and stopped. So wondering if I will be more than 1 cm on Tuesday. Lots of hip, back and pelvic pressure, but I don't think I look like I have dropped or anything.
Belly button in or out: stretching but still an innie
Progress (added a new one) My next appt is Tuesday, so we will see!
Looking forward to: Having this baby! Oh and having a name for her!

Milestones:7 more days!! wooooooooooooo! well hopefully! hoping she comes between now and my due date... don't know how I will feel if I am late!

38 Weeks!!

Okay so I royally suck at actually hitting post on these silly things!!
Mostly because I am not on my computer at home after being on it all day at work.

How big is baby:  38 weeks, pumpkin!
Total weight change:  at my appt Tuesday, I was up 3 from last week making it 8 total but really 18 including the gain back.
Symptoms: reflux is getting worse. sigh... hips getting really sore at night and waking up more to pee.. Feet and fingers are swollen by the end of the day but it goes away over night and my BP is fine so my dr is not worried

Maternity clothes: Yes please, it is like wearing jammies all day!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: I am so tired all the time but sleep is getting more elusive!
Best moment of this week: no clue!
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time! Solid night of sleep. Sleeping my on back or belly.
Movement: She is a crazy one sometimes... I can just sit and watch my belly go insane! still the same, but there are lots of quiet moments, and more hiccups!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Chicken....
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: have had lots of cramping and 2 nights where some back contractions woke me up but they stopped when I rolled over
Belly button in or out: stretching but still an innie
Progress (added a new one) at my appt this past Tuesday I was 1 cm and very soft. last week I was 1cm and long and hard, so I guess my body is doing something!
Looking forward to: Last day of work the 29th. I have been so bored the last few weeks since I am just here for support and not actually doing any work!

Milestones: 10 days left?????!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

37 weeks! (I suck at posting)

I waited a day to post since I had a checkup this morning.

Measuring right on track, baby HB was 166 and my BP was good! Yay!! Lost a pound from last week but they were not worried about that. Reflux sucks balls this last week.

Was given the option to get checked or not and decided to have it done out of curiosity more than anything. 1cm dialated but still long and hard. So something is happening but not much! 

36 weeks! 28 days left!

How big is baby:  36 weeks, honeydew melon
Total weight change:  I have been boredom eating at work and when i weighed myself the other day I was up 5 more lbs! Eep! Have an appt tomorrow so we will see
Symptoms: waking up a couple more times at night, more restless. reflux, so tired... ready to be done working!

Maternity clothes: Yes please, it is like wearing jammies all day!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: I could sleep all the time if I was able to!
Best moment of this week: Our glider came in a month earlier than quoted so the nursery really is done!
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time! Solid night of sleep. Sleeping my on back or belly.
Movement: She is a crazy one sometimes... I can just sit and watch my belly go insane!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Chicken....
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: stretching but still an innie
Looking forward to: pedicure tomorrow! Lol! Appt in the morning tomorrow. Getting the group b swab and tdap shot wondering what else they are going to do!

Milestones: last month! 3 more weeks of work!

35 weeks down 35 days left!!

Okay I am late posting but whatever... deal with it!

How big is baby:  35 weeks, coconut
Total weight change:  I have been boredom eating at work so have not weighed myself this week!
Symptoms: waking up a couple more times at night, more restless. reflux, so tired... ready to be done working!

Maternity clothes: Yes please, it is like wearing jammies all day!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: I could sleep all the time if I was able to!
Best moment of this week: Getting the nursery finished!
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time! Solid night of sleep. Sleeping my on back or belly.
Movement: She is a crazy one sometimes... I can just sit and watch my belly go insane!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Chicken....
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: stretching a bit more but still in
Looking forward to: picking up our glider this weekend! and picking up more of the stuff off the registries. I ordered everything left on the one and am going to pick up some stuff off the other on Monday. leaving some big stuff on there but will eventually get it.
Milestones: 35 days left on sunday.... today since I am late, 30 days! eek!

34 weeks!! and Baby Shower day!!!

How big is baby:  34 weeks, Butternut squash
Total weight change:  Weighed myself this morning and I am up a pound from starting weight, so including what I lost and gained back that is 11 lbs.
Symptoms: sleeping kind of sucks because my hips get so sore during the night, other than that the emotions have kicked up a notch
Maternity clothes: Yes please, it is like wearing jammies all day!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: I could sleep all the time if I was able to!
Best moment of this week: Had a wonderful baby shower today. I feel so loved and spoiled. I have piles of stuff to go through and sort. There is a pile of diaper boxes in the garage that comes up to my shoulder, 10 huge packs of diaper wipes so far that I have found in my little bit of searching the bags!
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time! Solid night of sleep. Sleeping my on back or belly.
Movement: She is a crazy one sometimes... I can just sit and watch my belly go insane!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Chicken....
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: stretching and itching, has been really sore a few days lately but still an innie
Looking forward to: sorting through all the baby shower stuff, making a list of what we still need and going shopping!
Milestones: 6 weeks left! next week is 35 weeks done, 35 days to go! EEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKK!

some of the diapers, I added more after this was taken!

Some of the pile, it goes back into the corner!

Another pile!

33 weeks!

So I missed last week but there was nothing new to report really! Just getting bigger and actually looking pregnant! Wish it was the cute round bump some people get, but is is more spread out and twice as big at night as in the morning!

How big is baby:  33 weeks-durian fruit, whatever that is! Lol!
Total weight change:  This morning I was at my starting weight, yesterday I was down 2 i dont know! At my dr appt last week I was up half a pound.
Symptoms: really achy right hip at night makes sleeping not fun! Heartburn way better with a higher zantac dose so that is nice!
Maternity clothes: Yes please, it is like wearing jammies all day!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much! But that darn hip an getting up to pee at least once a night sucks!
Best moment of this week: desk has been moved! Furniture arranged for now! Made a crib skirt with my mom that I love so much!
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time! Solid night of sleep. Sleeping my on back or belly.
Movement: She is a crazy one sometimes... I can just sit and watch my belly go insane!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Chicken....
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: stretching and itching
Looking forward to: baby shower is this weekend!! Yay! I am bad and stalk my registry, going by that we are basically getting nothing, and 2 diaper pails!
Milestones: Single digit weeks!! yikes!

I am having a day though... I am supposed to be training the guy who is going to cover for me... Yeah.. he sucks. He never wants to train. I sent an email to my boss and him (oh he is my boss's son) with a list of stuff asking if he is to be trained on everything.

I get a reply from my boss stating that yes he would like him trained on everything if I get a chance to show it. I wanted to write back that I am more than willing to train him at any point I am not the one who is avoiding the training, but decided that was not the best idea.

Also in the same reply was a question asking me what I thought my availability might by while I am on leave in order to help them should they have questions. Uhh.. If I am taking STD or FMLA (I am doing both) Legally I can't work during that time off especially the STD. Not that they would find out but if they did I could not receive my benefits. So I put off responding until he cornered me in the break room and asked me. So the only response I could come up with is that I could have my laptop with me and try to check my email once or twice a week. He did not seem thrilled by that answer but whatever. 
And how am I supposed to know what I will be able to do. I have never had a baby before. I am just so frustrated.

and then lets top that off with the stupid son, knowing I had a 15 bullet point list of things off the top of my head that I want to train him on sees me and asks "so is there anything that you need to show me" I just stared at him because I did not trust any words that may have come out of my mouth at that point. So after a bit he goes "well I mean you have stuff to show me but like when, later this afternoon maybe?" I responded with I am available whenever you are to show you everything. His response.... "how long do you think it is going to take?" I said well that really depends on you. So he then said "it depends on how smart I am right?" So i just said yes and walked away. Never heard from him again for the rest of the day.

I am getting so frustrated by the whole freaking thing and know I will be blamed for everything not happening because he refuses to learn. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

31 weeks!! Only single digit weeks left!!

How big is baby:  31 weeks a pineapple
Total weight change:  I am up 2 pounds from starting weight, 12 including what I lost and gained back (same as last week)
Symptoms: Heart burn is getting bad, a couple days of swollen feet.
Maternity clothes: Yes please, it is like wearing jammies all day!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: Got the nursery painted, some of the decor up, glider ordered.
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time!
Movement: She is a crazy one sometimes... I can just sit and watch my belly go insane!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Chicken....
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: stretching and itching
Looking forward to: Appt on the 15th, shower on the 27th, getting the crib put together.
Milestones: Single digit weeks!! yikes!

30 weeks down 10 to go.... that is only 70 days... 70?????!!!!!!!!!!!

How big is baby:  30 a large cucumber or a cabbage
Total weight change:  I am up 2 pounds from starting weight, 12 including what I lost and gained back
Symptoms: Heart burn is getting bad, a couple days of swollen feet.
Maternity clothes: Yes please, it is like wearing jammies all day!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: E feeling her kick! Watching my belly move as she has a dance party! Oh and finishing painting the nursery today!
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time!
Movement: Oh my gosh... so much. I can feel her and see her so much more now that she moved. It is so strange to feel her up  higher!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Chicken....
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie but looks like it is stretching a bit!
Looking forward to: my appt on Tuesday to hear her again! We also have a newborn class this Thursday so that will be interesting!
Milestones: Uhh... getting down to single digit weeks!

29 weeks (a little late)

So I am actually 29 w 2 d.... but still.... 
How big is baby:  29 butternut squash
Total weight change:   I am +1 from starting weight! woot!
Symptoms: hungry all the time and peeing a lot.... tiring easily....
Maternity clothes: Pretty much all the time... some are still a little baggy
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week:This might be a best moment for my next post because it just happened tonight... But E finally got to feel her. She was going nutso so I had him put his hand on my belly and after a bit he felt her, he jumped at first... but went back for more. It was so cute!
She also flipped from Transverse to I assume where she should be. That happened Sunday night, I guess she was feeling cramped after all my bending to paint! So my bump has shifted and is so strange to get used to!

 Painting the nursery!! well 2 walls!! It is small so there was some furniture shuffling happening!
I picked up the paint on Sunday and did 2 of the purple walls. 
Need E to move his desk around so I can do the last purple wall and then more moving to do the green wall. I love the purple... 
I have just gone and sat in there a couple times. Even E loves it!!


Miss anything: Not peeing all the time!
Movement: More and more every day!!
 Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie but feels like it is stretching
Looking forward to: painting the rest of the nursery. Our childcare class is next week, that should be interesting...
Milestones: Freakin 3rd tri... holy shit... where did the time go?

and here is the new bump now that she moved... 

Dating (back in the day).... More specifically strange dates...

So this came up from a group I am a part of... What is your strangest date...
Welllllll online dating left me with quite a few of those stories! So I thought to change it up from being all baby all the time I would share a bit of my crazy dating history!
Online dating eventually worked out cuz that is how I met hubster!!!

But I did have one in high school as well...
My brother is a year older than me so my senior year he was in college and his suite mate in the dorms was HOT so I spent a bit of time visiting my brother (we are really close so this was not super odd). At some point the suite mate and I exchanged numbers and started chatting a bit and decided to go on a date. 

My parents didn't really think this guy was all that great so we met up somewhere and drove down to a nearby town that has lots of shops and restaurants. He decided we should pretend to be french tourists. He was hot so I played along. We had a blast and people thought we were drunk.

As the night wound down we got back to where we had met and sat awkwardly in the car for a bit before he leaned over to kiss me... Like with his teeth... It was all teeth and hurt...
Dude you are so hot how do you not know how to kiss?
So we start over all nice for a minute and then it is back to all teeth again... That ruined it for me!
We chatted when I saw him but that was all. And my brother was soooo pissed when he found out we went on a date!

That one wasn't super funny but memorable!

After my boyfriend of 6 years and I broke up and taking a break from dating I tested the waters of online dating... Wow! There are some crazies out there!

Strangest date - possibly!
I met this guy on match.com we chatted a bit and talked about all kinds of randomness. Well at some point I said something about a coworker getting flowers and how I never had. He stalked me enough to find out where I worked and sent me flowers to my work. We had only emailed at this point, it was a GIANT arrangement. I got a creep vibe but also felt bad so agreed to go on a date with him.
So must have memorized all the stuff I had put on my profile like favorite song etc... I was running late so just told him to pick me up at my house. So he did and made sure I noticed he was wearing my favorite color, we got in his truck and he had put my favorite song on a CD on repeat.
We went to pick apples or something and came back to my house and I had chili in the crockpot which he gushed about being the best he ever ate and then he snuggled up to me on my couch (head on shoulder his feet tucked up on my couch) and asked to look through my photo albums because he wanted to see me when I was younger... It took forever for me to get him out of my house. My BFF kept calling to check on me and see if he was still there or not!
He emailed me as soon as he got home about me being "the one" and it being the best date he had ever been on.
I emailed him that night that things were not going to work out between us... I think he was crushed.

Another guy... we actually had 2 dates. Although I should have called it quits after the first one!
We had talked for a while and it seemed had a bit in common. So we decided to get together and hang out.
I was living at a house with lake access so we decided to hang out for a bit there and go swimming. Once we set up the plan he decided to tell me that Oh wait, not only did he not have a car, he also didn't have a license because he lost it from a DUI... And he lived a half hour away.
Well silly me decided I would go pick him up. We actually had a good time hanging out for a while and I took him back home (well his moms house cuz since he couldn't drive he also didn't have a job and therefore had to move back in with his mom) We talked in the driveway for a bit and had a kiss or two...
We kept talking and decided to go on a second date. To the renaissance festival... he still couldn't drive, so I had to drive 30 mins to pick him up and then from his place 2 hours to the festival. On the way he had me stop at an ATM so he could get money. Awesome, I suppose he is paying if he is getting money. We got to the gate to pay to get in and he bought one ticket... and then looked at me... OKAYYYYY guess I am paying for myself! and then he got a second ticket, I must have made my bitch face!
We walked around and were having an okay time. It was super super hot that day so we sat down to watch the joust. And he got up and bought a gatorade and came back and chugged the whole thing while I watched... Then asked if I wanted a drink. I told him no I was good...
We finally made it back to his apartment (he had moved) and he wanted me to see the place so I went in and got the tour. Which he made sure ended in his bedroom where he tried to put the moves on me. I shot him down.
We talked for a few more days after. And I decided things were not going to work and told him so.
The guy lost his shit... blasting me over email about leading him on and giving him the wrong impression and what a bitch I am, why would I go on a second date if I knew it was going no where etc...
The worst part... A few months later I went back to school for my MBA, and he was also taking classes there so I saw him in the hall ALLL the time. I got the death stare for a while from him.
But I didn't care because while he was doing that I was happily dating someone new who was mostly normal!

28 weeks! Third Tri!

How big is baby:  28 Eggplant
Total weight change:  Ummm so this morning I was only a half pound down from my starting weight! (still the same as last week)
Symptoms: we got a new mattress so sleep has been so much better. My asthma has been decent and tiring easily
Maternity clothes: Maternity clothes are so comfy, but they tend to fall down since I don't have much of a bump to hold them up so I am having to wear just a few things.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: deciding on paint colors! wooo!! And  buying the fabric for my mom to make the quilt.
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time!
Movement: yes! But every time I think maybe E will be able to feel it and go to put my had there she stops... such a stinker!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: painting!
Milestones: Freakin 3rd tri... holy shit... where did the time go?

27 weeks, 91 days left, 3rd tri... WTF?

Like seriously only 3 months to go... 91 days... there will be a baby in the house in 3 months... Cue panic attack!

Not really but holy crap!!

How big is baby:  27 weeks, Rutabaga!
Total weight change:  Ummm so this morning I was only a half pound down from my starting weight! (still the same as last week)
Symptoms: just tiring easily... but feeling decent other than that.
Maternity clothes: Maternity clothes are so comfy, but they tend to fall down since I don't have much of a bump to hold them up so I am having to wear just a few things.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: E was nesting yesterday... I went to do a 5k (walking) and came home and he had mostly cleared out the office and put together the rest of the dresser! So the dresser is in there, the empty file cabinet and his desk... quite a nursery! But his desk can stay there for a while longer before I boot him out. Maybe the start of August, but I will paint and get the rest set up in there around the desk!
Miss anything: Not peeing all the time!
Movement: yes! But every time I think maybe E will be able to feel it and go to put my had there she stops... such a stinker!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: actually deciding on a paint color!
Milestones: Freakin 3rd tri... holy shit... where did the time go?

I have been outed at work!

I made it to 26 weeks 3 days before being outed...
It was fun while it lasted!
Before yesterday my boss knew along with 4 others in my office and 2 in another office.
Yesterday my coworker and I were talking about a get together at her house over the weekend with someone and it came up that I was the sober one at the party.
Later in the day i am walking back to my desk and the other person is walking past me and she is really checking me out. She walks past my desk and then comes back after I sit down and stops for a second before she leans in real close and whispers "are you pregnant" I turned and smiled and said "I might be" she told me she figured after the conversation about me not drinking. She was so cute after that and called me once to ask boy or girl and emailed me another time about something else.

I had already decided if no one had asked this week I was going to out myself next week. I wasn't hiding the bump but I also was not wearing more fitted shirts to work. But this week baby girl has decided to start showing herself.

At lunch today we were talking and I don't even know what was said but the president was in there and I got a funny look from him. Well a couple hours later I was up talking to my coworker and he had come out of his office and got a good profile look at me and said "Umm Is that a bump?" so I said "I don't know do you think you see a bump?" so he asked again "is there a bump?" so I said "well there just might be a bump there!" He was all excited. So of course the next question came out... When are you due... his face when I said September 7 was priceless!
So I told my boss that I guess my secret was out, he had been asking me weekly if it was still a secret, and every week I told him until someone asks.

So my coworker later told me that right after lunch the president had asked her if I was pregnant and she told him that he needed to ask me. And I guess earlier this week my boss had told her that I wasn't going to be able to keep it a secret much longer because I was starting to show.

The president must have sent a text to the HR director because I had gone to get more water. And she came up the hall and saw me and started staring right at my belly. And then asked if I had a bump and reached out to touch me! I backed up so she couldn't and answered her question. Which she then went around the entire office telling EVERYONE! I guess that is one way to get the news out!

Everyone was in shock when I told them the due date and kept asking me where I was hiding the baby. Which for 26 weeks I should be showing more but little girl is chillin down low!

here is the bumparoo...

26 weeks! only 98 days left!

Holy crap double digit days left???????

How big is baby:  26 weeks, a head of lettuce
Total weight change:  Ummm so this morning I was only a half pound down from my starting weight!
Symptoms: Get tired easily, asthma issues... bloated like no other the last couple days, a couple days of feet swelling
Maternity clothes: Ummm a number of days I wore Mat clothes this week. So comfy but they slide down without the belly... but the belly is starting to show!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: We registered!!!!! Yay!!!!!!! I finally feel like we are getting somewhere!
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as forever!)
Movement: Feeling her more. a few outside thunks but still nothing enough for E to feel.
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: Cleaning more of the office out! I don't know about looking forward to but doing Glucose test sometime in the next 2 weeks. I just need to pick a day and drive to the lab and drink the stuff on the way there(I already have the stuff) probably will be next week since this week sucks monkey balls at work
Milestones: Next week is 3rd tri!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy shitballs!

The crib and mattress were delivered last week and are living in the closet for now! The dresser shows up tomorrow probably will chill in the garage until we move my desk and then the plan is to build it and put it in place.
I had my mom and a friend both tell me this weekend I am starting to look pregnant! yay! finally! only took 26 weeks/6 months! Now the annoyings at work will probably figure it out and start driving me crazy! Oh well I was hoping to make it to 3rd tri before they started, they will all be in shock when I tell them my due date! LOL!!

25 weeks! 15 weeks to go!!

Wow! 25 weeks already?? Crazy town!!

How big is baby:  25, a head of cauliflower!
Total weight change:  Sunday I was still down 3 pounds from when I found out...
Symptoms: Get tired easily, asthma issues...
Maternity clothes: I am slowly transitioning...  they are so comfy... but the full panel crap it so freaking hot with the temps in the 80s... Ordered a couple different pairs of shorts tonight to try that are not full panel.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: E finally got motivated and cleaned out the closet in the office! Woo!! So the dresser I sanded and painted was able to go in there, and I ordered the crib and dresser tonight! Yay!
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as forever!)
Movement: Not constant but a lot! But she is a stinker and when I put a hand to try to feel it from the outside she stops! E may never get to feel her at this rate!
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: Registering on Friday!
Milestones: Last one was Viability day, I don't know what the next will be!

24 weeks!!! Viability!!!!!

How big is baby:  24, either a canteloupe, an ear of corn or a grapefruit?
Total weight change:  Well I weight myself this morning and I am down a pound from last week? So down 4 still but earlier in the week I was at down 2 lbs so I am wondering what is up. If I don't start gaining soon I am going to call since my next appt isn't for another month.
Symptoms: Get tired easily, asthma issues...
Maternity clothes: I have worn a couple mat shirts and my Mat jeans. Not 100% transitioned yet, the jeans kept falling off because I don't have the bump to hold them up yet.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: Not real sure, got some cute stuff for her at yard sales and picked a space saver high chair up from a friend. Nothing much happening!
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as forever!)
Movement: Feeling her more and more, have felt a couple kicks from the outside. Still waiting for more and the outside to happen more so I can have hubs feel it.
Food cravings: I just love fruit still!
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: Hubs to clean out the closet of the office so I can start putting stuff in it!
Milestones: Hit Viability day!!!!!!!!! woot!! But hang in there for 16 more weeks little girl!!

23 weeks!

How big is baby:  23 weeks Grapefruit, large mango... I dunno
Total weight change:  I am still down 3 as of today, So no change for the last couple weeks
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired! and lots of RLP. Ugh!
Maternity clothes: I wore a pair on Friday and it was so nice, I still have 3 work pants that fit, so going to milk it a bit longer.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: Telling the fam it was a girl. We gave my mom and my MIL hanging baskets with cards that said they were from their granddaughter. My mom was 100000% sure it was a boy so she was shocked! my MIL was just excited. My SIL is super happy and I think my brother is still in shock that we are having a baby!
Also going to the OB on tues. She had to chase little girl all over to get the heartbeat and even then we only got it for like 2 seconds but you could just hear her moving all over!
Also telling my boss. I shocked him a bit by asking if he had a moment and asking if I could close his office door so we could talk. But he was pleasantly surprised about the news and agreed with me to not say anything because of how annoying my coworkers can get!
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as forever!)
Movement: I am feeling her more but still not consistent. I can't wait for it to be more often.
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: ummm viability day? Oh and probably going to order our crib and dresser this week!
Milestones: None this week, the next one is 24 weeks for Viability so Next weekend!

22 weeks!!

How big is baby:  22 weeks Papaya!!
Total weight change:  I am still down 3 as of today, So no change from last week.
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired! and lots of RLP. Ugh!
Maternity clothes: i am probably going to be making the switch soon!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: I can't really think of one, oh wait my shopping trip that I made a post about!
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as forever!
Movement: I am feeling her more but still not consistent. I wish it was. I feel like I have been feeling her less this week so I am anxious for my appointment on Tuesday.
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: ummm viability day? Next OB appt to hear her again (Tuesday!)
Milestones: None this week, the next one is 24 weeks for Viability

Tuesday I am telling my boss. I am freaking a bit. I know he will be cool about it, but if he is like EVERY ONE else he will ask me my plans for after the baby with work. 
That has not been decided and I wish people would stop asking me. Even though I have no intentions of going back to work there I don't know what the official plan is yet and am not going to tell him that. 
Also I don't want him to tell people at work simply because they are so irritating! They will all kill me when they finally do find out, probably when I start showing more. But that is fine. They can all get over it. Heck we didn't tell our families until about 20 weeks!

Pissed off. I hate ignorant people

I am so pissed off right now. I dont know if I am overreacting, if it is pregnancy hormones or if it is justified...

I started to write this at work but am so frustrated I feel  like crying so I had to stop...

I have this 3 coworkers in my building that currently know my news, K,A and J. Now K has been totally cool and has not asked anything really and is just happy for us. A is my work mom and knows about our struggle and that we had to do IVF, she knows enough but not everything, but would never say anything to anyone else. 

Then there is J. This is not the first time she had pissed me off but I will get into that later (it will really help with why I am so mad). It makes me so upset not just for me but all my friends who have struggled so hard to get what we all wish for and who are still struggling.
I was on my way to the bathroom and she stops me in the hall and asks if she can ask me a question.  First of all no I am a preggo who needs to pee but fine...
Me: "Ok fine whats up?"

J: "How long were you trying for before it worked?"

Me thinking this is not appropriate conversation especially in the hallway at work when I have not told anyone so I said "well it took us quite a while" I am not going to go into my IF journey with her or anyone else at work

J: "oh good, so maybe I am not broken" she and her husband have been trying for 3-4 months, 3! (Yes I remember way back when 3 months seemed like forever but still)
Me: deciding to spew what gets told to every newbie on TTGP who gets frustrated after the first couple months "Well it can take up to a year even with good timing, you really only have a 20% chance each month"
J: Blank stare... "well yeah it took my one friend like 10 years but she had cancer and chemo and then other medical issues... And I don't think I have any of that going on"
Me: "well if you want to try to time things better you can always pick up ovulation tests to make sure you are getting the timing down. Or even better  you can try tracking your temperature every morning before you get out of bed. That will tell you when you are ovulating."
J: "Sigh, that seems like a lot of work... and who knows if I am even ovulating"
Me: "well that would help you figure that out"
J: " I am probably just broken and should give up" and walks away.

I stare blankly after her down the hall and finally head to the bathroom and then head over to A. She looks at me funny when I walked up so I repeat what just went down with J. And guess what A tells me...

That the last few days J has been asking A all about my personal business... A told me her only response to any of these questions was that J needed to talk to me. Some of the stuff she was asking A: Were they even trying? Or was this a surprise? Do you know how long they were trying for? Do you know what they did to get pregnant? Do you know what worked for them to get pregnant? (umm same question) Did they have to go to a dr? I am sure there were more but still...
Then... Then... she told A that she should probably just start the adoption process right now and since she doesn't really want a baby she would get a kid right away.

Which brings me to my past with J. There have been a few other things but back in Sept/Oct right when we had decided we needed to do IVF and were starting the process she was talking to me about kids. And how she doesn't even really like babies. They just cry and poop and are annoying. So maybe she should just adopt since she doesn't want a baby anyway. And then goes on to talk about she doesn't get "THOSE PEOPLE" who spend all kinds of money and take all kinds of medicine to have a baby. She WOULD NEVER EVER EVER pay or take meds to have a kid and just thinks those people who do are crazy. During the conversation I couldn't even talk, I was so upset and hurt by her words that I couldn't even form a sentence. She went on and on for a while about this. I eventually said something about how some people don't have a choice and if they want to have children they do need medical assistance.
Most conversations with her are you sitting and listening to her spew her "knowledge" on whatever subject she picks anway.

I still have no words and don't know how to respond to her.

Sorry for the vent.. but it feels good to get it out.

Shopping... I am in big trouble!!

Why does there have to be such cute girl stuff???

I am waiting on stuff from Zulilly omg... Krdesi why did you get me started shopping in there??

But last night was out and died at the cuteness and had to buy these............

The pink i might take back for newborn... So hard not knowing how big she will be!

And then I went into old navy hoping there was a maternity section, there wasnt, but in the clearance section i found a baby penguin must have for this winter!

I see lots of money gonna be spent on this little girl!!

21 weeks!

Holy cow! This is flying!

We came out on facebook this weekend! So much drama leading up to it! Ugh! Feels better to be out! Now I need to tell my boss since I am sure people will start talking sooner or later. Especially after how much I ate over the weekend I actually have a bump today!

My BFF says I look like I have to poop! She cracks me up!

How big is baby:  pomegranate - 21 weeks
Total weight change:  I am still down 3 as of today, up like 1.5 from last week, ate a tonnnn over the weekend!
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired!
Maternity clothes: i am probably going to be making the switch soon!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: telling my brother and dad and then coming out on facebook! Kind of freeing! I need to tell my boss, probably next week and then the rumors can start at work
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: I am feeling her more but still not consistent. Last night I was feeling a light thunking and pressed on my belly a bit and felt her. So strange!
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: ummm viability day? Next OB appt to hear her again (next Tuesday!)
Milestones: Being out publicly finally! 

Check and Check... we an almost go public!!

Woot!
Dad down, brother down!
So my uncle has been really sick which is horrible but it has worked out in my favor.
My aunt had not posted an update on him in a few days so it gave me a reason to contact my dad to find out what was going on. (he is in the hospital and has viral meningitis, which luckily is the treatable one, but it is going to be a long recovery)
Anyway after finding out my Uncle was going to be okay my dad and I made some small talk and so then I told him I had something that could make his day a little better, so we told him he was going to be a grandpa again in September, he seemed excited I think but they were under a severe thunderstorm warning where they live and my step mom started yelling about stuff blowing away and a tornado warning so he had to go.
I sent him the latest US pic and our announcement pic and he wrote back and asked a couple questions but nothing much.

Next up was calling my brother to give him an update on our uncle. First I called my mom cuz I can never remember if my brother works until 7 or 8... she said it was 7... so I called and he had just gotten a message from one of our cousins with the update on our Uncle. So we talked a bit about that and he was a bit distracted but then I told him while I had him on the phone we had some other news.
So he asked what... so i just said that he was going to be an uncle in September. I think he was in total shock, kind of stammered a bit and just kept saying well that is a shock and Oh, okay well that's good a few times.. So I told him i would let him go so he could be in shock!
A few minutes later he started texting and seemed excited and then like 20 minutes later he called me to apologize. He was still at work and making notes in a patient file when I told him so he didn't know what to say. But he is excited!

I made the mistake of telling my mom we were going to go Facebook live this weekend. So she is all worried about feelings getting hurt. That my grandma needs to know before everyone else, which I agree so said my dad can call her Saturday morning. And then is worried that if we tell my one aunt Saturday when we see her that my other Aunt who is my godmother will be upset. UGH... fine tell Aunt S before Aunt H finds out. OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

20 weeks! Half Baked! What?????????????

How far along: 20 weeks half baked!
How big is baby:  banana
Total weight change:  I have been OOT so have no clue what I weigh, maybe tomorrow I will check!
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired!
Maternity clothes: some pants are tight, although I took 2 pairs of Mat cargo pants on vaca and wore them with the full waist folded down, so comfy! I think the couple of mat work pants just showed up so I might start transitioning to them.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: The anatomy scan! She has changed so much in 6 weeks! Still need to tell my brother (I suck at this) and call my dad and then we will go FB public this week
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: I feel things once in a while
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: Finally being public! 2 more calls to make and then we will tell everyone. It will be nice to be OUT! I told one more person at work but am not ready to be out there simply because they are so annoying. I will probably tell my boss next week and ask him not to say anything
Milestones: Half Baked!!! WOOOOOOOO

Anatomy Scan done!

Thursday morning was our Anatomy Scan. (this is late because we left right from that appointment to go on vacation and just got home tonight!)
Baby girl was sleeping through pretty much the whole thing, even when he was poking her to try to get her to move/wake up. She just rolled over!
She was chillin right where I keep feeling her, down low on the right side.
Luckily she was in a great position for him though to get all the views he needed so that was good!
He told us everything looked good on his end and went to see in there was a MFM dr that could come look but there was no one available right then but if there was an issue they would call. So no call = good news!
Okay... of course my pictures are on my phone. So I am going to attempt to save this from my computer and edit to add pics from my phone and come back...
We will see what happens! Ohhh look how talented I am!
I think he gave us like 12 pictures. a few were profiles then a foot those are the two I attached. There is one where she looks like skeletor and of course the money shot!

Foot?

19 weeks (almost half baked? whaaa?)

How far along: 19 weeks
How big is baby:  Mango!
Total weight change:  I have gained back 4 do still down 6. My OB is not concerned so I will not dwell on it!
Symptoms: Migraines, I have pretty much had one since last week. My OB gave me a prescription It hasn't helped really. And fatigue. 
Maternity clothes: Probably soon. A couple more pairs of pants were a little snug this week. Wishing it was a bump but it still isn't.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: Since last week? Telling my parents and E's sister. Hearing Penguins HB at my appt on Tuesday
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: I felt a couple things but nothing daily
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: Our Anatomy Scan is Thursday!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!
Milestones: Umm nothing really, half baked next weekend!

Why does IF suck so bad? Why do such horrible things happen to good people?

This will most likely be a rambling post but I just have so many thoughts in my head.

Life sucks so bad and so many bad things happen to such good people who have already struggled so much already.
last month it was one of the sweetest girls I have ever met on TB (and IDOB and SAIF) who experienced a loss. That struck me hard, I couldn't believe it, she was only about a month ahead of me. I am still completely devastated for her and her family. And think of her every day and send mental hugs her way.

Then this week another one of the girls who I know from TB and moved on to IDOB and SAIF as well started having complications.
She is due a week after me. 17 weeks and a few days.  I was just telling my husband today about her and how she was in the hospital with complications and how scary it was. It hit home even more because we were due so close to each other. And that we needed to keep her and her husband in our thoughts.
I really can't type this next part without crying. It is just so unfair. She (they) have been through so much to get pregnant.
We were told this evening that her water broke and she lost the baby. I just can't understand? Hadn't she and her family been through enough already?
Why does the universe or whoever it is keep doing bad things to such good people? It makes me so mad and sad. I don't even know how to express my feelings I can't imagine what she is going through. I don't understand?

I hate infertility and loss I don't want anyone to be hurt by them anymore. I don't want my friends to have to suffer because they want something that comes so easily to others.

One sibling down!

This has to be the most drawn out telling the family process EVER!!
We wanted to tell my brother and SIL and his sister and BIL this week.
Of course my brother is on vacation since last Friday and might be home tomorrow. Geez...
Come on family make it easier for me to tell you we have great news!!


Anyway E's sister had emailed us on Monday about a 5k race that sounded really fun it has an inflatable obstacle course!! But it is this August! When I would be 36 weeks pregnant!

We didn't respond on Monday and Tuesday she started texting me asking me if we were interested. So when E got home from work I told him we either had to call or Facetime her and finally tell her.

We picked up the phone and hit facetime and she answered and we talked to our niece and nephew for a while and they were wired!

After a bit I told her that we were actually calling to chat about the race she wanted to do. I told her E would probably be out of town that day and she thought that was a bummer and asked about me so I responded with "I don't think your new niece or nephew would really enjoy me doing that race so much" She gasped and was so excited!!
Started asking a ton of questions but was so super excited! And said she was wondering if something was going on since I was only doing 6 5ks this year when last year I did 13. I told her 13 was a lot to start with and a lot of pressure to do them. But that was obviously only part of the reason!

Now I need my brother to get home so I can tell him, then call my father and then announce on facebook... I will be past 20 weeks by the time all that happens!

Phew! Finally told :) Not the reaction I expected!

I really wish hubs had recorded the reaction! He said he wishes he had captured my mom's expression when she first realized, it was priceless!!

It totally wasn't what I expected!! 

I had wrapped my moms real birthday gift and then the frame with the picture in it.

So we chatted for quite a while and finally my dad asked when my mom got to open her presents! I gave her her real present first which she loved and then she asked if she could open the other one. I told her go ahead.

She did and stared for a bit before she asked what it was. I told her to read the bottom which the frame hid a little bit. She read it and stared then started patting her chest with her mouth hanging open, breathing real hard. Then went "really??? Really??" I said yes and she started laughing and pounding on her chest.

And my dad sat there going what? What is going on? She handed him the frame and he also asked if it was for real. So we said yes and he started to cry. I don't think my mom cried, my dad would and then stop and start again. It was so funny.

Now at this point I should explain the man I call my dad is my StepDad. He and my mom got married when I was 4 and has raised me like his daughter. I think he was more emotional at my news than when his own daughter told him for either of her kids.  He really is my dad, he was the man in my life for the last 33 years, blood doesn't matter, I love him with all of my heart regardless of genetics.
I still need to call my dad, he really wasn't part of my life, I saw him maybe once a year while growing up and then for a while not at all. I think I am going to call him right before we go live on FB and tell him. If he calls me for my birthday I will tell him then since we plan on going live right around then. I am sure he will be thrilled but he lives in another state and I doubt he will make any special trips to see his grandchild. He might come up once every 2 years for family reunions and I think my step mom is a total bitch so I don't make many trips to see him.

Then there were hugs. And discussion of how things would change and how far along I was. And how on earth did we keep it quiet for so long. So we explained how we were gonna tell but then the cancelled trip etc.... They wanted to start calling people right then but we asked them to please wait and if there was a leak of info we would know where it came from.

Then the annoying started! 50000000 questions from mom. Are you taking vitamins? Are you taking Folic Acid? Wait, didn't you run in a race the other weekend is that okay? how many sonograms have you had? Where will you have the baby? Where is your OB at, is that your regular Gyno? Do they even still offer lamaze classes? Are you going to take one? Will E be in the delivery room? What are you going to do about work? How sick were you? You look like you lost a lot of weight is that okay? Are you feeling anything? Do you know the sex? Are you going to find out the sex? What room will be the nursery?

And then we went out to lunch and the questions continued... I can't remember half of them! By that point I was giving short one word answers or just saying "we don't know yet" At one point I got up for something and E was at the table with her and he said she told him that she needs to stop with the questions because she can tell she is driving me crazy. The questions had stopped after I came back to the table.

Week 18!

Pretty much not much of this is going to change from last week!

How far along: 18 weeks
How big is baby:  Sweet Potato
Total weight change:  I am slowly gaining some back I am up 3 but still down 7 (same as last week) I have an appt this week and am wondering if they will say this is okay or not.
Symptoms: breathing sucks, sneezing makes my belly hurt from RLP pain, so tired
Maternity clothes: Not yet, but soon I think. I had to use my belly band with 2 pairs of my work pants last week. But most of them still fit just fine.
Still not really showing but my lower belly is getting harder and my permapudge (I can never get rid of it) is a little larger!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: My ILs came over with a baby gift yesterday she said it was baby's Easter gift, it is a ducky toy that jingles and can clip onto a car seat
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: maybe. I think I have felt things a few times but nothing consistant. Just a few flutters here and there and it is SO weird!
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: Telling my parents in just a couple hours!!
Milestones: none this week!

I can almost tell! I can almost tell!! :) (my parents)

I should have just done the phone call and gotten it over with. The last 2.5 weeks have sucked so hard!!

But my parents are finally home and we are going there Sunday!

We can't make it tomorrow (Friday) :( bummer too because my brother and SIL are going to be there.

I thought we could go Saturday morning  before our other plans but my dad won't be home... UGH!

So Sunday it is... As long as they will both be around... I need to double check on that one!
18 weeks and finally telling my mother... geez!!!

Then we can call my bio Dad and tell him what evs on that one... but he will be excited... he will never see her but he will be excited. Or maybe he will come up more than once every 2 years! Not going to hold my breath on that one though!

and then the sibs... of course my brother is going on vacation leaving this weekend for a week so maybe we will just call or we will wait a week... and finally tell E's sister and BIL they will be so excited...
and I am sure will want to clear out what baby stuff they may still have in their basement!

We are waiting to go FB public until after our Anatomy Scan on the 17th. I am thinking I will probably post something on my birthday, since we are going on a mini vacation right after the A/S and coming home the day before my birthday. And then that gives me a chance to tell my boss before I post!

Of course I will post the reaction Sunday...

and then Tuesday I have an OB appt and get to hear pengys HB again I am so excited. I keep thinking up questions and I really should write them down because I forget them so quickly!

17 weeks! Holy crap!

How on earth am I 17 weeks already???
Didn't I just pee on 5 million sticks and get my betas done??
None of this feels real yet!
Much of this stays the same!

How far along: 17 weeks
How big is baby:  Onion
Total weight change:  I am slowly gaining some back I am up 3 but still down 7 (same as last week) I have an appt in a week and am wondering if they will say this is okay or not.
Symptoms: breathing sucks, sneezing makes my belly hurt from RLP pain, so tired
Maternity clothes: Not yet, but soon I think. I had to use my belly band with 2 pairs of my work pants last week. But most of them still fit just fine.
Still not really showing but my lower belly is getting harder and my permapudge (I can never get rid of it) is a little larger!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much! I cannot get enough of you, I just wish I could fall asleep easier
Best moment of this week: I guess getting my first baby deal on the Ergo Carrier.
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: maybe. I am feeling strange feelings but don't know if it is anything or not.
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: My parents come home Wednesday so I think we will tell them Thursday!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!
Milestones: none this week!

First baby purchases!

It is so strange that I bought something for my baby!!
But Target was having a kick ass sale on the Ergo baby carrier...
So after asking if it was worth me going to get one and being told 1000% yes I trekked to Target after work!
I feel like an extreme couponer! My Target only had 2 black ones so I will exchange for the color I actually want later but it was $112-$20 (coupon)-$23 (20% coupon) -$3.70 (5% for using target red card)=$68.40 and got a $20 target gift card! so I consider that $48.40 plus tax!
Go me! Although I want the grey one... E said he kind of likes the black one so I need to decide if I am going to go exchange.

This is what I got                                        This is the one I want
                                                                I also bought a super soft fuzzy blankie... I want it to be my blankie!

16 week avocado

How far along: 16 weeks
How big is baby:  Avocado
Total weight change:  I am slowly gaining some back I am up 3 but still down 7
Symptoms: breathing sucks, sneezing makes my belly hurt from RLP pain, so tired
Maternity clothes: Not yet, but soon I think. I had to use my belly band with 2 pairs of my work pants last week. But most of them still fit just fine
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much! I cannot get enough of you, I just wish I could fall asleep easier
Best moment of this week: Finding out we are TEAM PINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhh that makes me so happy. I actually bought a girl outfit the other day. It was so strange that I was buying something for MY child.
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: No way
Food cravings: Not much right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: telling my parents.I decided it was not fair to my mom to tell her over the phone so telling everyone else has been put on hold until my parents get home. They are planning on getting home April 3rd. I can't wait to tell because I think I might start showing in another couple weeks. My pooch has moved up some
Milestones: 2nd tri!! woot woot!

We have a team!!!

It was decided that I call the genetic counselor yesterday morning. Hubs told me I could just wait until after work to tell him!

I was going to have a great secret ALL DAY LONG!!!!

So I pulled into the work parking lot and decided I could not wait any longer and called. (I was going to call at lunch)
Asked for A and they wanted to know why so I said to get a test result.

(Yes I am dragging it out on purpose!!)

I sat on hold for a while and she picked up and said she thought she had already given me the results, and it took so long because she had to pull my file. I said she had given us the results but that we had decided to find out the sex. She got all excited and said it was 99.4% accurate and always a good idea to have it comfirmed at our anatomy scan on the 17th.

Not a problem, we planned on keeping it quiet for at least that long anyway!!

So she asked if I was ready, uh duh yes just tell me already!!!!! and she said...

The test is 99.4% accurate as I said before and they found....

No Y chromosomes present! You are having a GIRL!!!!!! I squealed in her hear and she started laughing and asked it I was excited! I told her that I have thought girl since day one! she said there was something to be said for intuition!

So I sent a text to hubs being the mature adult that I am "I know something you don't know!! Neener neener neener!" I sent him that again toward the end of the day cuz he ignored me!

He got home from work and I was waiting for him to ask. I was going to  do something cute but didn't feel up to it. We chatted about other baby related things and I kept thinking that was going to be the next question... 4 hours later he looked at me when we were going to bed and goes... 'Hey, you still know something I don't!'

So I had him guess... He kept saying gosh I don't know I am a bad guesser... 

Then finally said Ummm... Girl. I think he was in shock when I said yes!
I think he was excited, it was hard to tell.

Then immediately said we needed to come up with names. I told him i didnt want to tell anyone the name after we picked it. He seemed okay with that.

Them suggested Helga and Brunhilda as viable options. I told him maybe we could tell people that to make them shut up!!

Finding out tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :)

Yay!!!!
So hubs and I chatted...
We decided that waiting until my parents come home is the best idea so we can tell them in person and it will be better for everyone.
So sometime after April 1st. I think they are leaving Arizona either March 31 or April 1st and probably 3 days home unless they push it.
2.5 weeks... I think we can! Hubs goes "well if we can keep it quiet until then" I have purposely only been texting and emailing my mom mostly so I don't slip up. I feel horrible but  I think she will understand!
So we are not telling anyone else until then. So the sibs have to wait and I think FB will have to wait until after our A/S.

And then I told him I was 72.93718% sure I wanted to find out if the penguin was a boy or a girl. And he said he was leaning more toward finding out lately as well. So I told him I could call the Genetic Counselor in the morning. And he said go for it.
We decided we would not say anything until after our A/S on 4/17 (well obvs I can't NOT tell my internet creepers!) So watch for an announcement tomorrow.
Man I hope my gut has been right for the last 13 weeks... it will be an adjustment in my brain if not!!

15 weeks

Oh man... there must be a hormone change or something that happens around 15 weeks... freaking migraines... had a bit of on Friday, again saturday night and I have pretty much been suffering all afternoon today. Holy crap... This better not become an every day thing!

Oh and I did my first 5k of the year this morning. It was freaking cold out. My SIL did the 10k and the 5k so she and I walked it together, we jogged the first maybe half mile and walked the rest. Official time 53:40, I am okay with it. For it being so cold, no training and just getting over a cold it is an okay time.

Anyway moving on...
How far along: 15 weeks
How big is baby:  Orange
Total weight change:  still down 9-10 lbs
Symptoms: breathing sucks, sneezing makes my belly hurt from RLP pain, so tired and no apparently headaches...
Maternity clothes: Not yet.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much! I cannot get enough of you, I just wish I could fall asleep easier
Best moment of this week: Probably telling the ILs. See previous post. We still need to tell my parents and then our siblings. I need this headache gone first. There is no way I can even fake be excited on the phone today. I am hoping tomorrow.
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves
Movement: No way
Food cravings: Not much right now
Food Aversions: Protein...
Sex: No clue but I think girl.
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: telling my parents. I wish we could do it in person, but I don't know if I want to wait 3 more weeks to be able to do that. Also I have decided I want to know the sex, now to see if Hubs is on board with that!
Milestones: 2nd tri!! woot woot!

One set of parents down... One to go!

Yay we finally told hubby's parents!
Today is his birthday and we were out and about and then decided to stop at their house for a visit.
It had been a while since I had been able to make it over to visit with them so it was nice to sit and chat....

I had put one of the ultrasound pics in a frame for them and then last night created this


I have the 7th circled in the final version of the pic and Baby _____ Arriving September 2014 across the bottom of it and printed it in black and white so the sock don't look like they are boy or girl.

I attached it to the front of the picture frame and wrapped it up.

So after chatting for a bit hubby got up and grabbed it and I told her we had a bit of an early birthday present for her (hers is in 10 days) and she was shocked and said she doesn't usually get birthday presents but okay. So she opened it... and looked at it for a second and teared up and handed it to my FIL who stared for a bit and I think it took him a minute and he broke out in a huge smile and asked MIL if she was happy. And she could just nod. She got up and hugged hubs and FIL hugged me so hard and then hugged hubs and MIL came and hugged me.

We all sat back down and they just sat and stared at the picture for a while. And then she said she was just so happy for us because she knew we had waited a while and that we had also been trying for a while (they don't know all the IF deets)

So then FIL starts talking about putting the baby swing back up and bringing the high chair out of the attic. I told him he probably had a year before he needed to do any of that. So then they started talking about how now they need to rethink when they will do their summer vacation. It was so cute!!!

Now I am still stressing about telling my parents. I know they will be just as excited and they will probably cry. I think my biggest problem with telling them is having to do it over the phone. And if we want to wait it will be another 3 weeks. I would be 18 weeks by then. And I want to tell more people and don't feel I can if I have not told my mom. AAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so much stress.

So I am sitting and waiting for them to call hubs for his birthday and we will tell them then I guess. If they don't call I guess we will call them tomorrow.... They always call for his birthday so I am in shock they have not yet and it is already 5pm...