How big is baby: 23 weeks Grapefruit, large mango... I dunno
Total weight change: I am still down 3 as of today, So no change for the last couple weeks
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired! and lots of RLP. Ugh!
Maternity clothes: I wore a pair on Friday and it was so nice, I still have 3 work pants that fit, so going to milk it a bit longer.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: Telling the fam it was a girl. We gave my mom and my MIL hanging baskets with cards that said they were from their granddaughter. My mom was 100000% sure it was a boy so she was shocked! my MIL was just excited. My SIL is super happy and I think my brother is still in shock that we are having a baby!
Also going to the OB on tues. She had to chase little girl all over to get the heartbeat and even then we only got it for like 2 seconds but you could just hear her moving all over!
Also telling my boss. I shocked him a bit by asking if he had a moment and asking if I could close his office door so we could talk. But he was pleasantly surprised about the news and agreed with me to not say anything because of how annoying my coworkers can get!
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as forever!)
Movement: I
am feeling her more but still not consistent. I can't wait for it to be more often.
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: ummm viability day? Oh and probably going to order our crib and dresser this week!
Milestones: None this week, the next one is 24 weeks for Viability so Next weekend!
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Sunday, May 11, 2014
Sunday, May 4, 2014
22 weeks!!
How big is baby: 22 weeks Papaya!!
Total weight change: I am still down 3 as of today, So no change from last week.
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired! and lots of RLP. Ugh!
Maternity clothes: i am probably going to be making the switch soon!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: I can't really think of one, oh wait my shopping trip that I made a post about!
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as forever!
Movement: I am feeling her more but still not consistent. I wish it was. I feel like I have been feeling her less this week so I am anxious for my appointment on Tuesday.
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: ummm viability day? Next OB appt to hear her again (Tuesday!)
Milestones: None this week, the next one is 24 weeks for Viability
Tuesday I am telling my boss. I am freaking a bit. I know he will be cool about it, but if he is like EVERY ONE else he will ask me my plans for after the baby with work.
That has not been decided and I wish people would stop asking me. Even though I have no intentions of going back to work there I don't know what the official plan is yet and am not going to tell him that.
Also I don't want him to tell people at work simply because they are so irritating! They will all kill me when they finally do find out, probably when I start showing more. But that is fine. They can all get over it. Heck we didn't tell our families until about 20 weeks!
Total weight change: I am still down 3 as of today, So no change from last week.
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired! and lots of RLP. Ugh!
Maternity clothes: i am probably going to be making the switch soon!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: I can't really think of one, oh wait my shopping trip that I made a post about!
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as forever!
Movement: I am feeling her more but still not consistent. I wish it was. I feel like I have been feeling her less this week so I am anxious for my appointment on Tuesday.
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: ummm viability day? Next OB appt to hear her again (Tuesday!)
Milestones: None this week, the next one is 24 weeks for Viability
Tuesday I am telling my boss. I am freaking a bit. I know he will be cool about it, but if he is like EVERY ONE else he will ask me my plans for after the baby with work.
That has not been decided and I wish people would stop asking me. Even though I have no intentions of going back to work there I don't know what the official plan is yet and am not going to tell him that.
Also I don't want him to tell people at work simply because they are so irritating! They will all kill me when they finally do find out, probably when I start showing more. But that is fine. They can all get over it. Heck we didn't tell our families until about 20 weeks!
Friday, May 2, 2014
Pissed off. I hate ignorant people
I am so pissed off right now. I dont know if I am overreacting, if it is pregnancy hormones or if it is justified...
I started to write this at work but am so frustrated I feel like crying so I had to stop...
I started to write this at work but am so frustrated I feel like crying so I had to stop...
I have this 3 coworkers in my building that currently know my news, K,A and J. Now K has been totally cool and has not asked anything really and is just happy for us. A is my work mom and knows about our struggle and that we had to do IVF, she knows enough but not everything, but would never say anything to anyone else.
Then there is J. This is not the first time she had pissed me off but I will get into that later (it will really help with why I am so mad). It makes me so upset not just for me but all my friends who have struggled so hard to get what we all wish for and who are still struggling.
I was on my way to the bathroom and she stops me in the hall and asks if she can ask me a question. First of all no I am a preggo who needs to pee but fine...
Me: "Ok fine whats up?"
I was on my way to the bathroom and she stops me in the hall and asks if she can ask me a question. First of all no I am a preggo who needs to pee but fine...
Me: "Ok fine whats up?"
J: "How long were you trying for before it worked?"
Me thinking this is not appropriate conversation especially in the hallway at work when I have not told anyone so I said "well it took us quite a while" I am not going to go into my IF journey with her or anyone else at work
J: "oh good, so maybe I am not broken" she and her husband have been trying for 3-4 months, 3! (Yes I remember way back when 3 months seemed like forever but still)
Me: deciding to spew what gets told to every newbie on TTGP who gets frustrated after the first couple months "Well it can take up to a year even with good timing, you really only have a 20% chance each month"
J: Blank stare... "well yeah it took my one friend like 10 years but she had cancer and chemo and then other medical issues... And I don't think I have any of that going on"
Me: "well if you want to try to time things better you can always pick up ovulation tests to make sure you are getting the timing down. Or even better you can try tracking your temperature every morning before you get out of bed. That will tell you when you are ovulating."
J: "Sigh, that seems like a lot of work... and who knows if I am even ovulating"
Me: "well that would help you figure that out"
J: " I am probably just broken and should give up" and walks away.
I stare blankly after her down the hall and finally head to the bathroom and then head over to A. She looks at me funny when I walked up so I repeat what just went down with J. And guess what A tells me...
That the last few days J has been asking A all about my personal business... A told me her only response to any of these questions was that J needed to talk to me. Some of the stuff she was asking A: Were they even trying? Or was this a surprise? Do you know how long they were trying for? Do you know what they did to get pregnant? Do you know what worked for them to get pregnant? (umm same question) Did they have to go to a dr? I am sure there were more but still...
Then... Then... she told A that she should probably just start the adoption process right now and since she doesn't really want a baby she would get a kid right away.
Which brings me to my past with J. There have been a few other things but back in Sept/Oct right when we had decided we needed to do IVF and were starting the process she was talking to me about kids. And how she doesn't even really like babies. They just cry and poop and are annoying. So maybe she should just adopt since she doesn't want a baby anyway. And then goes on to talk about she doesn't get "THOSE PEOPLE" who spend all kinds of money and take all kinds of medicine to have a baby. She WOULD NEVER EVER EVER pay or take meds to have a kid and just thinks those people who do are crazy. During the conversation I couldn't even talk, I was so upset and hurt by her words that I couldn't even form a sentence. She went on and on for a while about this. I eventually said something about how some people don't have a choice and if they want to have children they do need medical assistance.
Most conversations with her are you sitting and listening to her spew her "knowledge" on whatever subject she picks anway.
I still have no words and don't know how to respond to her.
Sorry for the vent.. but it feels good to get it out.
Me: deciding to spew what gets told to every newbie on TTGP who gets frustrated after the first couple months "Well it can take up to a year even with good timing, you really only have a 20% chance each month"
J: Blank stare... "well yeah it took my one friend like 10 years but she had cancer and chemo and then other medical issues... And I don't think I have any of that going on"
Me: "well if you want to try to time things better you can always pick up ovulation tests to make sure you are getting the timing down. Or even better you can try tracking your temperature every morning before you get out of bed. That will tell you when you are ovulating."
J: "Sigh, that seems like a lot of work... and who knows if I am even ovulating"
Me: "well that would help you figure that out"
J: " I am probably just broken and should give up" and walks away.
I stare blankly after her down the hall and finally head to the bathroom and then head over to A. She looks at me funny when I walked up so I repeat what just went down with J. And guess what A tells me...
That the last few days J has been asking A all about my personal business... A told me her only response to any of these questions was that J needed to talk to me. Some of the stuff she was asking A: Were they even trying? Or was this a surprise? Do you know how long they were trying for? Do you know what they did to get pregnant? Do you know what worked for them to get pregnant? (umm same question) Did they have to go to a dr? I am sure there were more but still...
Then... Then... she told A that she should probably just start the adoption process right now and since she doesn't really want a baby she would get a kid right away.
Which brings me to my past with J. There have been a few other things but back in Sept/Oct right when we had decided we needed to do IVF and were starting the process she was talking to me about kids. And how she doesn't even really like babies. They just cry and poop and are annoying. So maybe she should just adopt since she doesn't want a baby anyway. And then goes on to talk about she doesn't get "THOSE PEOPLE" who spend all kinds of money and take all kinds of medicine to have a baby. She WOULD NEVER EVER EVER pay or take meds to have a kid and just thinks those people who do are crazy. During the conversation I couldn't even talk, I was so upset and hurt by her words that I couldn't even form a sentence. She went on and on for a while about this. I eventually said something about how some people don't have a choice and if they want to have children they do need medical assistance.
Most conversations with her are you sitting and listening to her spew her "knowledge" on whatever subject she picks anway.
I still have no words and don't know how to respond to her.
Sorry for the vent.. but it feels good to get it out.
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Shopping... I am in big trouble!!
I am waiting on stuff from Zulilly omg... Krdesi why did you get me started shopping in there??
But last night was out and died at the cuteness and had to buy these............
The pink i might take back for newborn... So hard not knowing how big she will be!
And then I went into old navy hoping there was a maternity section, there wasnt, but in the clearance section i found a baby penguin must have for this winter!
I see lots of money gonna be spent on this little girl!!
Monday, April 28, 2014
21 weeks!
We came out on facebook this weekend! So much drama leading up to it! Ugh! Feels better to be out! Now I need to tell my boss since I am sure people will start talking sooner or later. Especially after how much I ate over the weekend I actually have a bump today!
My BFF says I look like I have to poop! She cracks me up!
How big is baby: pomegranate - 21 weeks
Total weight change: I am still down 3 as of today, up like 1.5 from last week, ate a tonnnn over the weekend!
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired!
Maternity clothes: i am probably going to be making the switch soon!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: telling my brother and dad and then coming out on facebook! Kind of freeing! I need to tell my boss, probably next week and then the rumors can start at work
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: I am feeling her more but still not consistent. Last night I was feeling a light thunking and pressed on my belly a bit and felt her. So strange!
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: ummm viability day? Next OB appt to hear her again (next Tuesday!)
Milestones: Being out publicly finally!
Total weight change: I am still down 3 as of today, up like 1.5 from last week, ate a tonnnn over the weekend!
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired!
Maternity clothes: i am probably going to be making the switch soon!
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: telling my brother and dad and then coming out on facebook! Kind of freeing! I need to tell my boss, probably next week and then the rumors can start at work
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: I am feeling her more but still not consistent. Last night I was feeling a light thunking and pressed on my belly a bit and felt her. So strange!
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: ummm viability day? Next OB appt to hear her again (next Tuesday!)
Milestones: Being out publicly finally!
Thursday, April 24, 2014
Check and Check... we an almost go public!!
Woot!
Dad down, brother down!
So my uncle has been really sick which is horrible but it has worked out in my favor.
My aunt had not posted an update on him in a few days so it gave me a reason to contact my dad to find out what was going on. (he is in the hospital and has viral meningitis, which luckily is the treatable one, but it is going to be a long recovery)
Anyway after finding out my Uncle was going to be okay my dad and I made some small talk and so then I told him I had something that could make his day a little better, so we told him he was going to be a grandpa again in September, he seemed excited I think but they were under a severe thunderstorm warning where they live and my step mom started yelling about stuff blowing away and a tornado warning so he had to go.
I sent him the latest US pic and our announcement pic and he wrote back and asked a couple questions but nothing much.
Next up was calling my brother to give him an update on our uncle. First I called my mom cuz I can never remember if my brother works until 7 or 8... she said it was 7... so I called and he had just gotten a message from one of our cousins with the update on our Uncle. So we talked a bit about that and he was a bit distracted but then I told him while I had him on the phone we had some other news.
So he asked what... so i just said that he was going to be an uncle in September. I think he was in total shock, kind of stammered a bit and just kept saying well that is a shock and Oh, okay well that's good a few times.. So I told him i would let him go so he could be in shock!
A few minutes later he started texting and seemed excited and then like 20 minutes later he called me to apologize. He was still at work and making notes in a patient file when I told him so he didn't know what to say. But he is excited!
I made the mistake of telling my mom we were going to go Facebook live this weekend. So she is all worried about feelings getting hurt. That my grandma needs to know before everyone else, which I agree so said my dad can call her Saturday morning. And then is worried that if we tell my one aunt Saturday when we see her that my other Aunt who is my godmother will be upset. UGH... fine tell Aunt S before Aunt H finds out. OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dad down, brother down!
So my uncle has been really sick which is horrible but it has worked out in my favor.
My aunt had not posted an update on him in a few days so it gave me a reason to contact my dad to find out what was going on. (he is in the hospital and has viral meningitis, which luckily is the treatable one, but it is going to be a long recovery)
Anyway after finding out my Uncle was going to be okay my dad and I made some small talk and so then I told him I had something that could make his day a little better, so we told him he was going to be a grandpa again in September, he seemed excited I think but they were under a severe thunderstorm warning where they live and my step mom started yelling about stuff blowing away and a tornado warning so he had to go.
I sent him the latest US pic and our announcement pic and he wrote back and asked a couple questions but nothing much.
Next up was calling my brother to give him an update on our uncle. First I called my mom cuz I can never remember if my brother works until 7 or 8... she said it was 7... so I called and he had just gotten a message from one of our cousins with the update on our Uncle. So we talked a bit about that and he was a bit distracted but then I told him while I had him on the phone we had some other news.
So he asked what... so i just said that he was going to be an uncle in September. I think he was in total shock, kind of stammered a bit and just kept saying well that is a shock and Oh, okay well that's good a few times.. So I told him i would let him go so he could be in shock!
A few minutes later he started texting and seemed excited and then like 20 minutes later he called me to apologize. He was still at work and making notes in a patient file when I told him so he didn't know what to say. But he is excited!
I made the mistake of telling my mom we were going to go Facebook live this weekend. So she is all worried about feelings getting hurt. That my grandma needs to know before everyone else, which I agree so said my dad can call her Saturday morning. And then is worried that if we tell my one aunt Saturday when we see her that my other Aunt who is my godmother will be upset. UGH... fine tell Aunt S before Aunt H finds out. OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, April 21, 2014
20 weeks! Half Baked! What?????????????
How far along: 20 weeks half baked!
How big is baby: banana
Total weight change: I have been OOT so have no clue what I weigh, maybe tomorrow I will check!
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired!
Maternity clothes: some pants are tight, although I took 2 pairs of Mat cargo pants on vaca and wore them with the full waist folded down, so comfy! I think the couple of mat work pants just showed up so I might start transitioning to them.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: The anatomy scan! She has changed so much in 6 weeks! Still need to tell my brother (I suck at this) and call my dad and then we will go FB public this week
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: I feel things once in a while
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: Finally being public! 2 more calls to make and then we will tell everyone. It will be nice to be OUT! I told one more person at work but am not ready to be out there simply because they are so annoying. I will probably tell my boss next week and ask him not to say anything
Milestones: Half Baked!!! WOOOOOOOO
How big is baby: banana
Total weight change: I have been OOT so have no clue what I weigh, maybe tomorrow I will check!
Symptoms: peeing a lot and tired!
Maternity clothes: some pants are tight, although I took 2 pairs of Mat cargo pants on vaca and wore them with the full waist folded down, so comfy! I think the couple of mat work pants just showed up so I might start transitioning to them.
Stretch marks: only what I started with
Sleep: Ahhh sleep, I love you so much!
Best moment of this week: The anatomy scan! She has changed so much in 6 weeks! Still need to tell my brother (I suck at this) and call my dad and then we will go FB public this week
Miss anything: liking to eat protein, sneeze without pain and to be able to brush my teeth without gagging and dry heaves (same as last week)
Movement: I feel things once in a while
Food cravings: I just love fruit right now
Food Aversions: Protein...I have to force myself to eat meat.
Sex: Girl!
Labor signs: no way again
Belly button in or out: innie
Looking forward to: Finally being public! 2 more calls to make and then we will tell everyone. It will be nice to be OUT! I told one more person at work but am not ready to be out there simply because they are so annoying. I will probably tell my boss next week and ask him not to say anything
Milestones: Half Baked!!! WOOOOOOOO