I was so excited this morning to go see what all the stabbing myself in the stomach had brought about!
Got there and they called me back and I sit down to have my blood drawn for my E2 check. And she barely put the darn tourniquet around my arm made me squeeze a wash cloth and went fishing. Damn it hurt! Once in my left and then once in my right. So she said I was dehydrated and took me back to the room for the ultrasound.
So I saw a different doctor than I normally see for my ultrasounds he went in and found I had 2 on my right that were larger and a few on my left. So the ones on the right were like 8 and 9mm I think maybe a little bigger. So he told me to do 3 more shots of the 75IU of Gonal-F and to come back on Monday. But that meant I needed to order more from Freedom so there goes another $444... ugh... and I wouldn't even use the full dose up most likely.... feels like a waste of money but if it gets us a baby then it is so worth it!
He leaves and the nurse brings me water and has me sit in the waiting room chugging water for like 10 minutes. Then calls me back and gos mega digging in my arm again. She still got nothing and finally decided to send me to the building next door to the lab. The lab where apparently all the preggos go for bloodwork. So I sit on the bench with 2 preggos and then another runs in who is almost late for her blood draw for her glucose check. So I was nice and let her go first.
The lab lady looked at my arms and shook her head and got a vein first try and apologized for the ladies at my drs office.
Ticker
Friday, June 28, 2013
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Clomid again... IUI#4 & 6 month post surgery SA
Thursday May 9, 2013
IUI#4
Our break cycle was a bust so 2nd cycle with clomid only hot flashes this time so better than Femara!
I had my monitoring yesterday and had a 23mm on the right and a 22mm and a 16mm on the left, so I got my trigger shot and right now I am waiting for the IUI!
I am about over all of this! The Dr who did the US said I might want to schedule an appt with Dr S to discuss what we are going to do next. I couldn't bring myself to schedule it yesterday.
But maybe I will schedule it after the 2ww is over that way I can cancel if by some miracle this works.
Right now I don't know if I want to do IVF and fairly certain that I do not want to adopt. I guess it is getting to be that time where we need to sit down and talk this out and figure out how far we are going to go with all this.
My faith in all of this is waivering
2 years is such a long time and maybe it is just not going to happen for us
I am okay with maybe 2 more IUIs if needed but dotn' know how much more I can take.
The meds mess with me so much.
Post wash numbers 31 mil 80% motile
June 6, 2013
6 month post surgery SA followup showed some improvement
144 mil, morph holding steady at 7% and same with motility 40%
Dr O released E.
IUI#4
Our break cycle was a bust so 2nd cycle with clomid only hot flashes this time so better than Femara!
I had my monitoring yesterday and had a 23mm on the right and a 22mm and a 16mm on the left, so I got my trigger shot and right now I am waiting for the IUI!
I am about over all of this! The Dr who did the US said I might want to schedule an appt with Dr S to discuss what we are going to do next. I couldn't bring myself to schedule it yesterday.
But maybe I will schedule it after the 2ww is over that way I can cancel if by some miracle this works.
Right now I don't know if I want to do IVF and fairly certain that I do not want to adopt. I guess it is getting to be that time where we need to sit down and talk this out and figure out how far we are going to go with all this.
My faith in all of this is waivering
2 years is such a long time and maybe it is just not going to happen for us
I am okay with maybe 2 more IUIs if needed but dotn' know how much more I can take.
The meds mess with me so much.
Post wash numbers 31 mil 80% motile
June 6, 2013
6 month post surgery SA followup showed some improvement
144 mil, morph holding steady at 7% and same with motility 40%
Dr O released E.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Next steps appointment :(
IUI 4 was a bust so I scheduled an appt to see Dr S to see what she thinks we should do next.
Of course I was on CD5 when I went in so nothing was going to be able to happen and we would have to take a cycle off but I am kind of okay with that!
She was happy with the follies I was producing with both Clomid and Femara and also said that our counts had been consistently good from E so she was kind of bummed that it hadn't happened yet. She was also concerned because of our age we really shouldn't be waiting around for it to happen.
Our options per her were to move on to IVF, and she talked me through the whole process, which as of yet I am unsure I am ready to move onto. Or we could try to do another IUI cycle or two with injectibles. Since they can control the hormones a little better and get a better quality egg/eggs out of the cycle. The chance of multiples is a little higher but not by much.
She asked which I thought I would like to do and I told her I was leaning toward trying another IUI because I wasn't ready to commit to IVF at that point. She seemed okay with that but seemed like she didn't want us to wait too much longer before moving on.
So the nurse comes in and walks me through everything I need to do before my next cycle starts, which included calling the insurance to make sure I was covered and that the meds would be covered. So I put it off a day or two and finally called the insurance company. I started giving the girl the procedure codes and she was quiet for a minute and then asked if it all the appointments were related to infertility treatment and I told her yes. She was quiet again for a minute and then said "I am so sorry to have to tell you that you have already met your lifetime max of $5,000 for infertility treatments" I didn't know how to respond. She apologized again and then told me that means the meds wouldn't be covered either. She kept saying sorry. I had a feeling since our previous couple IUIs had been covered and I didn't know how much coverage we had.
So I started to call pharmacies and they all said they didn't want to tell me how much the meds would be, dang they are expensive! But Freedom Pharmacy had the cheapest prices by far. So I called back to the RE office and asked them if they could call me in a lower dose to save money since I would be out of pocket and she told me that wouldn't be a problem she would call in the 450IU instead of 900IU so $444 instead of $888.
So that night I had to tell E that this cycle wouldn't be covered. So he asked how much it would cost. My estimate based on the printouts I had gotten was showing including meds it would be anywhere from $4000 to $8000 depending on how many U/Ss and blooddraws. I think he was going to crap his pants. I told him that it would be cheaper than IVF and we would try it once and see. He told me he just wished there was a guarantee that if we spent that much money we would get a baby. I agree but what are we going to do
Of course I was on CD5 when I went in so nothing was going to be able to happen and we would have to take a cycle off but I am kind of okay with that!
She was happy with the follies I was producing with both Clomid and Femara and also said that our counts had been consistently good from E so she was kind of bummed that it hadn't happened yet. She was also concerned because of our age we really shouldn't be waiting around for it to happen.
Our options per her were to move on to IVF, and she talked me through the whole process, which as of yet I am unsure I am ready to move onto. Or we could try to do another IUI cycle or two with injectibles. Since they can control the hormones a little better and get a better quality egg/eggs out of the cycle. The chance of multiples is a little higher but not by much.
She asked which I thought I would like to do and I told her I was leaning toward trying another IUI because I wasn't ready to commit to IVF at that point. She seemed okay with that but seemed like she didn't want us to wait too much longer before moving on.
So the nurse comes in and walks me through everything I need to do before my next cycle starts, which included calling the insurance to make sure I was covered and that the meds would be covered. So I put it off a day or two and finally called the insurance company. I started giving the girl the procedure codes and she was quiet for a minute and then asked if it all the appointments were related to infertility treatment and I told her yes. She was quiet again for a minute and then said "I am so sorry to have to tell you that you have already met your lifetime max of $5,000 for infertility treatments" I didn't know how to respond. She apologized again and then told me that means the meds wouldn't be covered either. She kept saying sorry. I had a feeling since our previous couple IUIs had been covered and I didn't know how much coverage we had.
So I started to call pharmacies and they all said they didn't want to tell me how much the meds would be, dang they are expensive! But Freedom Pharmacy had the cheapest prices by far. So I called back to the RE office and asked them if they could call me in a lower dose to save money since I would be out of pocket and she told me that wouldn't be a problem she would call in the 450IU instead of 900IU so $444 instead of $888.
So that night I had to tell E that this cycle wouldn't be covered. So he asked how much it would cost. My estimate based on the printouts I had gotten was showing including meds it would be anywhere from $4000 to $8000 depending on how many U/Ss and blooddraws. I think he was going to crap his pants. I told him that it would be cheaper than IVF and we would try it once and see. He told me he just wished there was a guarantee that if we spent that much money we would get a baby. I agree but what are we going to do
Monday, March 18, 2013
3rd Medicated cycle.... Clomid
Wednesday March 6, 2013
This cycle is Clomid. I took 50mgs for days 3-7. Now on day 11 with lots of twinges and pinches.
No bad headaches which has been super nice.
On Saturday i hav emy US and hoping for IUI on Sunday. I have been really sick since Friday 102 fever and a horrible cough, so I finally went in on Monday and I have Bronchitis, a Sinus Infection and the gross viral infection that is going around! I missed work Mon and Tues and went back today and am so exhausted now!
Work is going to suck soon because C put in his 2 weeks on Monday. My life is gonna suck once he leaves. I wish I could go with him!
I had 2 follies - 23mm and 33mm and count was 63 mil and 80% motile - BFFN
This cycle is Clomid. I took 50mgs for days 3-7. Now on day 11 with lots of twinges and pinches.
No bad headaches which has been super nice.
On Saturday i hav emy US and hoping for IUI on Sunday. I have been really sick since Friday 102 fever and a horrible cough, so I finally went in on Monday and I have Bronchitis, a Sinus Infection and the gross viral infection that is going around! I missed work Mon and Tues and went back today and am so exhausted now!
Work is going to suck soon because C put in his 2 weeks on Monday. My life is gonna suck once he leaves. I wish I could go with him!
I had 2 follies - 23mm and 33mm and count was 63 mil and 80% motile - BFFN
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
2nd Medicated cycle! 3 month post surgery SA
Sunday January 27, 2013
Welp, last month was a bust, but I start Femara again tonight. Take 2 on medicated plus IUI. E has a repeat SA on Feb 15, but IUI will be the week before maybe...
Numbers were good last time so let's hope they are this time as well!
So my period has kind of sucked this month, 3 days of migraines before it even started and then still a dull ache the last couple days. Super emotional.
I am kind of nervous about starting another month of meds that something will go wrong like over-stim or cysts or who knows. But oh well I am off to take my meds! :)
Need to call in the morning to set up my day 14 ultrasound. This time I am going to remember to ask how big the follie is and what my lining is at.
Wednesday February 6, 2013
Tomorrow is my ultrasound so fingers crossed that there is a good follie or two in there and good numbers from E.
I have had major headaches this time again with the Femara so I need to mention that when I go in. They seem to be gone now but I messed up my back. I just can't win!
I feel very crampy and full right now and have been using OPKs like a mad woman to make sure I don't O prior to my appt. they have started to fade in but so far not positive so that is good!
Don't know that E realized my appt is tomorrow so I need to remind him when he gets home that he needs to be ready for Friday!
I was going to bring a cup home for him but we are supposed to get another snow storm so I might not be able to make it there in an hour, so he is going to have to suck it up and go in! I want to take the day off work but have sooo much to do that I might take a half day and bring stuff home with me.
Wednesday March 6, 2013
Wow okay a little behind!
IUI #2 I had 2 mature follies. POst wash was 28 mil and 60% morph.
So looked good again...
BFFFN
He also had his post surgery SA (3 months) and his numbers were better.
Before After
Count 84 mil 113 mil
Motility 20% 40%
Morph 6% 8%
He had a followup with Dr O today. Waiting for him to get home to hear what was said.
I met with Dr S to discuss future plans after having such bad headaches with the Femara and we decided to try Clomid for 2 cycles and then if needed to do 2 with injects. Before discussing IVF.
Welp, last month was a bust, but I start Femara again tonight. Take 2 on medicated plus IUI. E has a repeat SA on Feb 15, but IUI will be the week before maybe...
Numbers were good last time so let's hope they are this time as well!
So my period has kind of sucked this month, 3 days of migraines before it even started and then still a dull ache the last couple days. Super emotional.
I am kind of nervous about starting another month of meds that something will go wrong like over-stim or cysts or who knows. But oh well I am off to take my meds! :)
Need to call in the morning to set up my day 14 ultrasound. This time I am going to remember to ask how big the follie is and what my lining is at.
Wednesday February 6, 2013
Tomorrow is my ultrasound so fingers crossed that there is a good follie or two in there and good numbers from E.
I have had major headaches this time again with the Femara so I need to mention that when I go in. They seem to be gone now but I messed up my back. I just can't win!
I feel very crampy and full right now and have been using OPKs like a mad woman to make sure I don't O prior to my appt. they have started to fade in but so far not positive so that is good!
Don't know that E realized my appt is tomorrow so I need to remind him when he gets home that he needs to be ready for Friday!
I was going to bring a cup home for him but we are supposed to get another snow storm so I might not be able to make it there in an hour, so he is going to have to suck it up and go in! I want to take the day off work but have sooo much to do that I might take a half day and bring stuff home with me.
Wednesday March 6, 2013
Wow okay a little behind!
IUI #2 I had 2 mature follies. POst wash was 28 mil and 60% morph.
So looked good again...
BFFFN
He also had his post surgery SA (3 months) and his numbers were better.
Before After
Count 84 mil 113 mil
Motility 20% 40%
Morph 6% 8%
He had a followup with Dr O today. Waiting for him to get home to hear what was said.
I met with Dr S to discuss future plans after having such bad headaches with the Femara and we decided to try Clomid for 2 cycles and then if needed to do 2 with injects. Before discussing IVF.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
1st medicated cycle
Wednesday December 26, 2012
Well at least AF waited until today I guess?!
Onto cycle 18 and our first medicated cycle. Guess E needs to be filled in on the plan for this month since he may or not need to go in the morning of the IUI. (I know it probably sounds like I don't tell him anything but I do tell him, he is so forgetful and obviously I didn't know when this cycle would start!)
I start taking Femara on Friday for 5 days and on day 14 I go have an ultrasound and get triggered if everything looks good! IUI would be the next day.
Bur for now I am curled up with bad cramps and a heating pad watching it snow. I need to call and schedule my US, I am hoping and praying it only takes one, but from what I have read first IUIs are usually a bust.
I am glad I worked from home today with the snowstorm that is here now!! :)
Wednesday January 9, 2013
Well cycle 18 IUI #1 is in the books (or in the vag :))
Days 3-7 i took Femara which gave me wicked headaches and hot flashes and made me crabby but oh well.
So day 14 (yesterday) I went for my monitoring US and she said my lining looked good, I had nothing on the left and one really big follie on the right. I forgot to ask for the measurements.
They gave me a shot of Ovidrel which triggers ovulation. I was pretty crampy all last night, so I assume I was ovulating?!
E went in at 750 to make his deposit! and at 920 I got there. Was taken back and verified that the sample was mine (his). Prewash motile 54mil, post wash 34 mil 70% motile, she said they look for anything over 10 mil so that was really good and better than presurgery!
I got to lay back and have the catheter put in and it all took less than 5 minutes. I got to lay in the darkened room for 10 minutes and I was on my way to work!
I have been crampy all day which they told me was normal. So 14 days from trigger i can test, but I am testing out my trigger shot so I saw my first EVER positive test today, it was so odd and I am hoping for one in 14 days!
Well at least AF waited until today I guess?!
Onto cycle 18 and our first medicated cycle. Guess E needs to be filled in on the plan for this month since he may or not need to go in the morning of the IUI. (I know it probably sounds like I don't tell him anything but I do tell him, he is so forgetful and obviously I didn't know when this cycle would start!)
I start taking Femara on Friday for 5 days and on day 14 I go have an ultrasound and get triggered if everything looks good! IUI would be the next day.
Bur for now I am curled up with bad cramps and a heating pad watching it snow. I need to call and schedule my US, I am hoping and praying it only takes one, but from what I have read first IUIs are usually a bust.
I am glad I worked from home today with the snowstorm that is here now!! :)
Wednesday January 9, 2013
Well cycle 18 IUI #1 is in the books (or in the vag :))
Days 3-7 i took Femara which gave me wicked headaches and hot flashes and made me crabby but oh well.
So day 14 (yesterday) I went for my monitoring US and she said my lining looked good, I had nothing on the left and one really big follie on the right. I forgot to ask for the measurements.
They gave me a shot of Ovidrel which triggers ovulation. I was pretty crampy all last night, so I assume I was ovulating?!
E went in at 750 to make his deposit! and at 920 I got there. Was taken back and verified that the sample was mine (his). Prewash motile 54mil, post wash 34 mil 70% motile, she said they look for anything over 10 mil so that was really good and better than presurgery!
I got to lay back and have the catheter put in and it all took less than 5 minutes. I got to lay in the darkened room for 10 minutes and I was on my way to work!
I have been crampy all day which they told me was normal. So 14 days from trigger i can test, but I am testing out my trigger shot so I saw my first EVER positive test today, it was so odd and I am hoping for one in 14 days!
Friday, December 7, 2012
Moving forward maybe???
Wednesday November 21, 2012
I met with Dr B today. He was an Ass... I honestly almost walked out on him.
He was an older gentleman from it sounded like russia or something.
He looked at my chart with my blood tests on it and said he had no idea why I was even there.
He told me that the reason I was not getting pregnant was that I was grossly obese. And that if I lost 50-60 pounds that I would get pregnant. And just sat there and stared at me.
Then he pulled up the MRI of my brain. That was cool to see. He looked at the small adenoma and said it was nothing why were we worried about it. He saw no reason for anyone to be concerned about any of my blood work or test results and that I should stop the synthroid and cabergoline and lose wait and get pregnant.
There was more but I tuned out at some point because after an hour in the room with that man I was over it. I hope I NEVER have to see him again.
I am overweight I am not going to deny it. I am 5'7" and am 212. I am not morbidly obese like he made me feel. I work out a lot and do not eat horrible so I don't know what to do.
Friday December 7, 2012
Well not much has been happening this week. We both went to the Dr. E is still a litlte sore and we have both been sick.
I did my 5day Zpak to get better but we both still have an annoying cough.
Tuesday morning I had my followup with Dr S. She looked at my charts since starting the Cabergoline and said things looked better with my ovulation and was satisfied with my appt with Dr B and him saying all was good. But was mad that he told me to stop all my meds and made sure that I hadn't done that.
Then she was talking about E's surgery and how it would be 3 months after he would have another SA to see if things improved and then after that we could discuss options, that would be MARCH.
I am sure I had a look on my face because then she said unless you would like to do something sooner.
So I said that I would like to try to start sooner rather than later based on our ages etc. Shockingly she said No Problem!!!
Since I was on CD8 there was nothing we could do for this cycle which I guess is okay. He is still sore and we are sick. But we decided that after this cycle Days 3-7 of next cycle I will be on Femara to help grow some healthier eggs. She picked Femara based on my history with hormone related headaches thinking Clomid would give me more trouble with those. CD14 I would go in for an ultrasound to see how the egg follicles look. If they look good and are a good size they would give me a trigger shot in the office and the next morning we would go in for an IUI!
She has me down for 2 cycles of that beofre I meet with her again to review how things were going and if I was responding to the Femara.
So E had his followup and they told him things looked good and in another MONTH the swelling should be gone, and the tenderness should be mostly gone. In Feb he goes for another SA and there should be improvement, but the numbers will slowly improve until then so it could happen this month if he feels up to it. But so far this month it is the same as always with just a 7dpo blood draw for me to check my progesterone to see how I am ovulating on my own. Business as usual
I met with Dr B today. He was an Ass... I honestly almost walked out on him.
He was an older gentleman from it sounded like russia or something.
He looked at my chart with my blood tests on it and said he had no idea why I was even there.
He told me that the reason I was not getting pregnant was that I was grossly obese. And that if I lost 50-60 pounds that I would get pregnant. And just sat there and stared at me.
Then he pulled up the MRI of my brain. That was cool to see. He looked at the small adenoma and said it was nothing why were we worried about it. He saw no reason for anyone to be concerned about any of my blood work or test results and that I should stop the synthroid and cabergoline and lose wait and get pregnant.
There was more but I tuned out at some point because after an hour in the room with that man I was over it. I hope I NEVER have to see him again.
I am overweight I am not going to deny it. I am 5'7" and am 212. I am not morbidly obese like he made me feel. I work out a lot and do not eat horrible so I don't know what to do.
Friday December 7, 2012
Well not much has been happening this week. We both went to the Dr. E is still a litlte sore and we have both been sick.
I did my 5day Zpak to get better but we both still have an annoying cough.
Tuesday morning I had my followup with Dr S. She looked at my charts since starting the Cabergoline and said things looked better with my ovulation and was satisfied with my appt with Dr B and him saying all was good. But was mad that he told me to stop all my meds and made sure that I hadn't done that.
Then she was talking about E's surgery and how it would be 3 months after he would have another SA to see if things improved and then after that we could discuss options, that would be MARCH.
I am sure I had a look on my face because then she said unless you would like to do something sooner.
So I said that I would like to try to start sooner rather than later based on our ages etc. Shockingly she said No Problem!!!
Since I was on CD8 there was nothing we could do for this cycle which I guess is okay. He is still sore and we are sick. But we decided that after this cycle Days 3-7 of next cycle I will be on Femara to help grow some healthier eggs. She picked Femara based on my history with hormone related headaches thinking Clomid would give me more trouble with those. CD14 I would go in for an ultrasound to see how the egg follicles look. If they look good and are a good size they would give me a trigger shot in the office and the next morning we would go in for an IUI!
She has me down for 2 cycles of that beofre I meet with her again to review how things were going and if I was responding to the Femara.
So E had his followup and they told him things looked good and in another MONTH the swelling should be gone, and the tenderness should be mostly gone. In Feb he goes for another SA and there should be improvement, but the numbers will slowly improve until then so it could happen this month if he feels up to it. But so far this month it is the same as always with just a 7dpo blood draw for me to check my progesterone to see how I am ovulating on my own. Business as usual